The End of The Begining

December.
We were Friends.
Perfectly.
We were on the same wavelength,
  or so you said.
I trusted you; you trusted me.
We talked; we laughed; we hugged.
Once we kissed, but that's of no matter-
We were Friends.
We knew we would be Friends Forever.
Nothing could destroy a Friendship like this.
Except for One thing:
The Bringer of War;
The Bringer of Peace;
That One thing
  is a most bloody word.
Love.

The Begining of The End

January.
Something happened while we watched
  the doomed boat sink.
Something snapped in my mind.
Suddenly, the world changed about me.
Suddenly, my heart awoke.
How could I tell you
  this dangerous thing?
How could I tell you
  what made my heart beat?
I fought depression, anxiety, grief.
I waited. I wondered. I sent you a letter.
You called, before I was ready.
You forced me to say
  what should have waited.
You were shocked, surprised, amazed,
  what could I mean, you wondered.
You promised to call later, after work.
Silence, Instead.

April.
Three months of pain.
Three months of suffering.
Three months of hell.
Three months of wondering what happened.
Countless times, I begged to talk.
Countless times, you said "okay."
Countless times, you never called back.
Countless times, I cried.
You said "We'll always be Friends;"
You said "I don't want to lose you."
You said "I'll call you later."
You said "I promise."
Later came, and Later went,
The sun rose, and the sun set,
But one thing remained: the phone was silent.
Why won't she call?
Why can't she see?
Why does she ignore me?
Why did I Love?
What happened?
What did I do wrong?
What did I do to deserve this?
What can I do to fix
  the only thing that ever really mattered.
A Friendship.

The End of The End

May.
So I cried.
And I weeped.
And I begged you to call.
And you said "call me tomorrow."
So I called you
And you were asleep.
Or you were "just leaving."
Or you were not there at all.
And sometime along
  the hellish road
I realized what I had to do.
A Friendship requires two Friends, not one.
I can not be Friends for both of us.
So I told you that.
And you woke up.
And you went back to sleep.
And my heart stopped beating
  four months ago.
I stopped caring. Stopped Loving. Stopped living.
I woke up
  from my long slumber.
I told you to call me.
You remained silent.
So I told you our Friendship was over.
You woke up.
But you went back to sleep again.
And now, you've caused me so much pain,
So much loss,
So much grief,
That I gave up hope.
And I told you one last time
  what you needed to do.
Silence.

The Begining of A Begining

Now.
The End has come,
And The End has passed.
The sun still rises,
And the sun still sets.
My heart still beats.
I still care.
I still live.
I still Love.
Nothing has changed
  since the Begining of The Begining,
Before I really knew you.
And whether the End of this Begining
  is the End of The Begining,
Only You now know.
Only You can change the End.
Only You can change this Begining.
Only You can keep a Friendship
  from slipping to
The End.