I am cursed.
The universe hates me.
Nothing goes my way.
And the world can't see me
for who I really am
because of the mask I'm forced to wear.

Everyone wears masks at one time or another.
People use them for good and for evil.
Some people have many,
Some have few
But everyone has control over their mask.
Except for me.

I am forced to wear my mask.
The only one I have.
And it presents, more often than not,
an impassioned, unemotional face.

But this is not who I am
Not deep down inside
Where my soul is forced to hide.
And no matter how hard I try
I can not remove my mask
when there are other people around.

Only two people have ever truly seen beyond.
Only two people were able to remove my mask.
Only two people had the kindness to make me happy.
The only two people I have loved.

The first had problems of her own;
she knew not what she had found.
And intentionally or not,
she wounded my soul.
Snd caused more pain that one can imagine.
And when it was over,
my soul barely intact,
my mask gripped firmly to my face.

I wandered aimlessly
without hope
or joy
or love.
Until the day
I looked at you
and saw what I was missing.
You filled the void,
and made me smile
and healed me
and made me happy.

You took off my mask
and looked inside me
and I think you saw what was there.
You filled me with joy
more than I ever knew was possible.
You rekindled the fire within my soul
that was so dangerously close to burning out
And you touched me in ways
no one has ever done before
And I can't imagine my world without you.

I wish you weren't already taken
I wish we could be together
I wish we could be one.
I wish he wasn't involved.

Without you
the fire would have gone out long ago.
And it's dangerously close to going out now.
I can't let it go out
no matter the cost
or I'm afraid nothing will be able to remove my mask.
And even if we can't be together
maybe you can still help me
and rekindle the fire once more.

And now my mask
reasserts itself
and attempts to push aside my soul.
And I lose feelings
and emotions
and stop caring about the world
and my love for you
will either save me
or doom me.