I lay in bed
tossing and turning
trying to get back to sleep
but I can't
because there's too much noise:
my unwilling thoughts of you.

I try to shut it out
but I hear your voice calling
silently, in my mind
and I can't do anything
but think of you.

Your beautiful face
and your calming voice
tortures me;
it would be easier if we were together
since the constant thoughts of "what if" or "why not"
wouldn't be yelling at me
louder than I can block out.

I can't escape
and I can't wish it to stop
and I can't let go
though I must.
My heart can't be tamed
by my will alone
it needs your help too.

Maybe now
the voices will stop
and I can get some rest.
Hopefully I can block out
just for one more night
the forbidden love
of my heart.