I look at you and see
someone who makes me smile
and laugh
and feel good inside.

I think of you and remember
the fun we had
and I know
I want to do it again.

I thought of you as a friend
and then we talked
and I discovered
we have a lot of little things in common
(none of which I can remember).

And as we talked
your opinion started to matter.
And then I cared about your opinion.
And then I cared about you.

And then we got together
and did that dinner and a movie thing
which could easily have been a date
but wasn't(?).

I enjoyed myself.
You said you enjoyed yourself too.
So who really needs social skills
if we both had a good time without them?

And afterwards, I discovered
I really like you alot.
And I began thinking about you.
And I want to know you better.

But.
I'm afraid.
What do I say?
How do I say what I want to say?
What do you think?
Do you like me?
Are we compatible?
What are your feelings?

I'm terrified.
What if you don't like me?
What if you say no?
Can we still be friends?
If not, I can't say anything.
Even though it's eating me up inside.

I'm scared.
I don't want to think.
I need to know.
But I don't want to hurt you.
Or me.
Or make you feel uncomfortable.
Or hurt our friendship
which I greatly value.
And I don't know what to say.
And I repeat everything over and over again in my mind.
And I hope you care about me.
And like me.
And understand that I'm sincere.

I wonder.
Now that I've written this.
And calmed down somewhat.
Will I ever be able to show it to you?

Or am I doomed to bad timing?
And won't let you see this
until it's too late?
I can't take rejection again.

Please
tell me
of your true feelings.